Will I have the courage to step out in faith? It has been bothering me for days, nay for weeks!, yet I delay seeking God about it. Sigh. My mind wants to obey but my heart wrestles with it. I’m not at peace. I wage war against myself!

I know where it’s leading, yet I tremble in fear. Perhaps it’s me wanting to resurrect myself or it’s really that – fear. Fear of the unknown? Fear of what God has to say about it? Sigh.

Hard-headed me…The answer to my questions is already there, staring at me, yet I refuse to look. I may not like what I would see. Or I’m not prepared for what it would require of me.

So, what now? Delayed obedience is still disobedience. Sigh.